Had it up to here

Or maybe a bit higher than that. Oh the pain of taking 5 13 year old girls to the twilight movie.... My head hurts"....".............

Grrrrrrrrrrrr

Sometimes I feel a whole lot of crazy

Times have said that lots of stuff have gone on.... I need to be a better blogger.... I need to be a better job applicant..... Sigh.....

So I'm sitting here

Watching my favorite sport, and yes my team is up! Just checked in on momma and the puppies, did I say that she had a litter and that we lost one of the three, well, yeah that's what happened. So as I keep looking for work, I get more and more frustrated with the opportunities that are out there. Sigh. I so want to feel purposeful again. I feel as if I have no definition of what I am doing. I miss sitting and having discussions with others, whether it be about the marketing forecast and anticipated response and redemption rates, budgets, staff... I miss business stuff. I miss driving and facilitating change.

When will things change? I'm so in a funk!

Being the adventurous one has it's downside

It's called parenthood! I look back at all the crazy situations I ended up in and I wonder how I made it past jr high let alone high school. Odd to think that I started dating at 13, and never dated a high school boy, ever. The bands, the sneaking in to shows that were 18+ or 21+ without a question, hanging out at radio stations, tour busses, rides from people I could not ever tell you their first name.....walking home from parties dodging headlights for fear of a curfew bust going for walks where the farther we got from the neighborhood, the more skin showed, the bigger the hair.... Oh gosh the hair..... I remember driving home watching the sun rise, hoping I'd make it home to get the uniform to get to school on time.

Needless to say yes I did go to all girls catholic after a few antics in jr high.....

Oh, I almost forgot, the puppies came 2 girls and one boy.

Never have I seen more of myself in my kid

So I see my daughters weaknesses are mine. It is interesting that I am trying to teach my oldest to study, when I never needed to and most likely she won't need to either. I am trying to teach my youngest to build up trust because of her inappropriate texting, when trust is what I need to build.

Well, here it goes again...

...... So I have decided to start anew, for maybe what, the 4th time.  I can't keep track!  Here goes yet another new blog.  I thought it important to just start over and create a new blog where I write about being me. 

I guess I think of this place as my spot to work out all the "crazy" in my life with a slice of sanity on the side.....


ENJOY!